Rosie Today

on canceling a commitment

ending a relationship with a high school friend

OR WORSE

ending a relationship with a family member?

I don’t believe in ending relationships.

I only exist in being in tune with the flow of life, guided by intuition, though admittedly, I have made plenty of mistakes.

I choose a path of life that aligns with my highest level of clarity, my truest, most raw, authentic source of self.

Those faces in the mirror? they are not me. just a version of me. a me from the past, tired, bent over with hazy yellow eyes.

me from the future, rich and successful, sitting upright at a wooden desk holding a trophy, my golden blonde hair swirled into space buns with braids framing my face, wearing a black satin modern suit coat with a trim-cut white lace blouse.

Me right now: wearing a yellow cropped Brazil tank, low-rise jean shorts, a gold charm bracelet, and a Baby G Shock watch. sitting on my sky blue bed sheets.

I always feel meant to be where I am. And I do quite literally mean always!

If I keep going, I make mistakes. If I stop, I get to choose. where I want to be and when. no need to be pulled in any random direction; just stop, breathe, and slow down. relax. It’s all going to be okay and work out.

My cereal fuels me and keeps me close to the light. Through life, I learn about the diet that keeps me this close to the light, even when times look pretty dark.

It’s not being thin that matters, though that is a nice side effect of eating like a person who wants to have a close relationship with God.

We would all live a more aligned society if everyone could stop, meditate, and ask god what to do next. listen to signs from their bodies and take clues like signals. when to stop. when to rest. when to go. when to say no. when to say yes. when to eat a steak. when to wear a dress. when to say thanks. when not to say sorry.

mommy mommy help me. I want to say sorry, a devil does not despair.

I try and give up, try, try again. master of none. possessor of magic. mistake after mistake, eventually I decided to stop trying.

Just be and concentrate on the red book that’s in front of me. my secret guide, a promise of a fortune far worse than mine.

I am saved from hell! Christ, I just know it. How does that undermine everything that is taught? How to do this, which chakras to heal? It’s hard to live a life in alignment. Not super possible if you’re a regular person. It takes time, space, and conscious awareness for old souls to remain in tune with this modern space. Lots of patience. Lots of grace.

Young people flock and soar on technology; AI is forging predictable outcomes.

something is missing, something’s not right. I crave that feeling, like everything is clicking.

The missing equation. The words fall into place. Everything sorts itself out one piece at a time. So many paths pull me. I am surrendering.